Working out feels horrible and uncomfortable

I’m done seeing everyone praise how good working out feels and how good they feel afterwards. I need to have this rant. I’m an active person. I work out 3-4 times a week and I’ve being doing that for the past 4 years. Do I enjoy the the results? Yes. Do I enjoy the process? Absolutely not. The only reason I do it is because I built a nice physique which I want to maintain.

But I despise everything about it. How is possible to enjoy physical effort? It’s literally a state in which you feel uncomfortable. Lifting weights is hard, therefore, uncomfortable. Isn’t just chilling and doing nothing 1000 times better? Why would anyone love exhaustion? Whenever I’m in the gym I’m only driven by willpower to keep going.

Thank god I have so much willpower, otherwise I would probably look like a blob. The more I progress with my workout, the more my muscles start to hurt, I sweat, my clothes stick to my body which feels so gross, I smell like a dumpster, I feel exhausted, dizzy and can’t think straight. If I go too hard I may even get a headache. And on top of all that, there’s also the cardio which I have to do at the end of my workout after already feeling this miserable, which is somehow even worse.

Having to run for 15-20 minutes after already being destroyed is torture. But I do it, because I have to, it will be worth it in the end. That’s what I’m telling myself in order to keep going. During cardio I sweat even more, the sweat starts pouring into my eyes, my lungs and throat start hurting too, my chest hurts, I can’t breathe well, I feel like I’m dying.

I only ever work out in the evening so I can go home and sleep right after, otherwise my day is ruined because I feel tired and weak for the rest of the day. And then there’s also the muscle soreness. As long as I regularly work out and don’t break my schedule it is not that bad, but I’m still in a little distress from the pain.

If something happens and I miss a week or two from the gym I need to mentally prepare myself for the pain I’m gonna have to endure after. Having bad muscle soreness feels exactly like having the flu when all your muscles ache. Identical feeling. Basically feels like being sick for 2 weeks. So my question is, how on this earth can people enjoy this? Just how??

Edit: Oh, and then there’s also these people who suggest you to workout if you’re in a bad mood. Like dude, the last thing in the fucking world I wanna do after already being in mental distress is to feel physical distress too. Sounds like a nice combo to you? Fuck off.

Working out feels horrible and uncomfortable